Countdown to Copenhagen

Hey, bloggers!

It's been a long time, hasn't it? Sorry about that. This past month has been full of thoughts of midterms, grades, money, working out, girlfriends (not really, there's only one of those), and most of all... STUDYING ABROAD.

In fact, that one takes the cake. I've been thinking about studying abroad pretty much 24/7 since my junior year started. Make that 24/8. My college was the first in the United States to make studying abroad a requirement - going to a different country and learning for a minimum of 3 weeks.

Well, guess what? I'm doing a semester program in Copenhagen, Denmark! I'll be abroad from January 18th to May 18th, studying gender and sexuality in EUROPE. I seriously can't wait. Although it's stressful (read: money), I'm trying to make this the best trip of my life. I've had too many "blah" trips in the past, and seriously, this is Europe. This is gender and sexuality. Two things I'm really really interested in. Frankly, I have no idea when I'd ever have this opportunity ever again, and I'm really excited to seize it. For all you college students out there who are wondering if you should study abroad: do it. Seriously. I didn't think my financial aid would cover the costs, but it's covering a good amount of them.

And hey, guess what again? That's where you come in! I'm currently working on campus and I'm receiving scholarships and loans. However, I still need help in making my study abroad experience a reality. Check out my fundraising site here: http://www.youcaring.com/tiannagoestocopenhagen and please pass it on! I didn't want to turn this blog into a plea for cash, and I hate asking for help, but I do really need your help. I'm almost there! And if you weren't aware, I am in a wizard rock/nerd rock band called Tianna and the Cliffhangers. If you would like to hear folksy/acoustic music about Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, feminism, and queer ladies, then you've come to the right place! If you donate any amount to my study abroad fundraiser I will email you a Bandcamp download code so you can easily access my new CD called "Out of Character."

I love you all, and I can't believe some of you have stuck around with this blog for so long. ^_^


Til less than a month away this time,
Tianna 

On Westboro Baptist, Religion, & Heterosexism

Where to begin? I was going to make a video out of this material, but I figured I would be more eloquent if I wrote it down. And hopefully more people view this than my YouTube videos (lolz).

You’ve heard of how horrific Westboro Baptist is. You probably saw that interview with Russell Brand. They’re messed up, right? 

We have to remind ourselves that Westboro Baptist is, yes, horrific, but an extreme example of horrificness. They are not alone in their views. You can be heterosexist and be much more subtle about it, and when Westboro speaks [some] people toss their shit in the air and scream because they can’t handle such extremist views, when actually, that same extremist view is filtered down and dissipated onto, like, all of us. From the time we’re born we’re taught being straight is right. It’s normal, that’s why it’s lawful.

Here’s your friendly reminder that heterosexism and its effects come in a ridiculous array of forms. I am emphasizing the effects because most people would not agree that it is necessarily heterosexist for a countless amount of people to glare at my girlfriend and I holding hands or kissing in public. A glance is not necessarily heterosexist. But it can not be separated from heterosexism. Heterosexism is a belief. It can be acted upon in any number of ways, from subtle (mean looks) to extreme (Westboro. I’m not saying they’re THE MOST heterosexist thing ever, but hopefully you get the point).

As far as subtle goes, I’ve heard my whole life that “homosexuals” need “praying for.” Okay. Let’s take a step back for a second. Is it the 1950s? Do we really have to use “a homosexual” to define people? How often do people come out and say “I’m a homosexual”? “A homosexual.” As if it is the dirtiest, most condemning disease you could contract. Can we just drop “homosexual” as a noun? Shit.

I digress. So why do we need praying for? We don’t. I first kissed a girl when I was about 6 years old (that’s a different story) and I didn’t start realizing I had feelings for girls until I was about 12 and I was falling in love with my best friend. This is because society screamed silently at me, endlessly, to make me believe that IT’S ADAM AND EVE, NOT ADAM AND STEVE! Straight is the way, damn it!

Recently my parents have taken to buying my brother’s girlfriend nice things and treating her like a daughter. My cousin just got married to his girlfriend and more family attended their wedding than we even have. My other cousin who’s a year younger than me just got engaged today and is moving into a house with his girlfriend. My other cousin is keeping his and his girlfriend’s new baby from his family until they get “their shots updated.” Imagine those situations with a gay couple and how outsiders would view them. Meanwhile, my girlfriend has always been “Tianna’s friend” and nothing more. And it shouldn’t be that way.

I have had the amazing opportunity to attend a college with a lesbian chaplain, and as a co-president of our Queer Student Union I hosted a Religious & Queer Identities Panel at our school. That chaplain said, “Your sexual orientation is not a sin.” At the same panel, a religion professor said, “Anyone who says ‘love the sinner hate the sin’ is just trying to excuse their bigotry.” The same professor also said that you should not be ashamed for cutting ties with people who preach “love the sinner, hate the sin.” These women’s words will stay nestled in my heart forever, because I know what they said is true, and for once I had someone voice that truth back to me. If theists knew their religious texts so well, they would know that your sexual orientation is not a sin. I have distanced myself without shame from people who ridiculously believe that I need prayed for by a god I don’t even believe in.

Which leads me to my next point. As an atheist, I am torn between anger and laughter when someone says I am going to hell or that they are praying for me. In case you haven’t noticed, atheists do not believe in the concept of hell. So, yeah, empty threat there. Also, why are you praying for me? Why? Look at your life, look at your choices. I don’t need you to pray for me. I would not ask for that. I do not need it. It makes me sick to think about. Stop it. Stop it right now. I am a queer atheist. I am a queer atheist. I am a queer atheist and I don’t need your shit.

Lastly, stop being creepy. Stop prying into my life and worrying about what I do in bed. Would you even know if I “act on my homosexuality” without me telling you? Are you imagining me in various lesbian sex positions at all hours of the day? What is your fascination with queer people? Stop praying for me. Just stop. And start realizing the effect heterosexism has on not just society, but on you as an individual.