where i'm from

I'm just gonna post lots of poems I write in school here, kkz? :)

I am from the frog pond,
from quads I didn't want to ride
and swimming pools I was too embarrassed to get in
(chlorine, cousins
who thought of me
as a city rat)
I am from the bleeding heart plant,
the treehouse in the woods
my brother and sister built
now just a memory.

I am from roadtrips,
from Diane and Tara.
I'm from Alanis Morisette
and James Taylor,
from pirouettes and plies.
I'm from a wardrobe of
fur coats and fawns.

I'm from gingerale,
broken mugs and neglected tea.
From acoustic guitars,
power chords and Vienna sausage.
I am from the eight-sided circle
reading "stop Voldemort"
at the bottom of the hill,
far off in Virginia,
or a castle across the seas
from Silly Strawberry toothpaste
and the Walmart parking lot
all of the magic
stowed away, kept in blogs
and annual conventions
the kind of interaction I was born for

50 ways to convince people you're magic

i wrote this for poetry class. when it's written out on the page it looks a lot cooler, with like 20 of them on one page, but i ain't tryna confuse myself by replicatin' that on blogger. whuddair. my teacher clearly loves me. yeahyeah, i know i'm clever.

1.
offer
a ride
in your
flying car

2.
keep checking
the mailbox
the letter
will come

3.
yell
LUMOS
at the
light switch

4.
sew
an
invisibility
cloak

5.
join
the
quidditch
team

6.
invisible friends:
ron
and
hermione

7.
purchase
a
magic
wand

8.
get
fitted
for
robes

9.
stupefy
the
school
bully

10.
beg dad
to grow
hagrid's
beard

11.
recreate
tom
riddle's
diary

12.
"has
anyone
seen my
horcrux?"

13.
get
adopted
by
molly

14.
make
your
own
spells

15.
pregnant?
name
her
hermione

16.
write a
musical
about
it

17.
claim
you're
a
metamorphmagus

18.
listen
to
wizard
rock

19.
refuse
the
3rd
floor

20.
actually
believe
in
nargles

21.
love
poems
to
gilderoy

22.
security guard?
no,
that's
filch!

23.
only
sleep
in
four posters

24.
request a
government
time
turner

25.
there
has to be
ginger
hair dye

26.
lose
count of
the
rereads

27.
cosplay draco
even if
you're
a girl

28.
no
fighting
just
dueling

29.
"make
love
not
horcruxes"

30.
wand
always
at the
ready

31.
harry potter
posters
count as
wallpaper

32.
study
your
star
sign

33.
you're not
riding a horse,
you're a
centaur

34.
make
your own
radish
earrings

35.
pass out
anti-
umbridge
flyers

36.
palin
and
voldemort
2012

37.
it's not
halloween,
but i'm still
luna

38.
crucio
when
things
get bad

39.
50 ways
to make
voldemort
mad

40.
horn-rimmed
glasses? must
work for
the ministry

41.
you're a
catholic,
i'm a
potterist

42.
mom, i'm
scared for
school
tomorrow.

43.
what if
they put
me in
slytherin?

44.
you're a
quarterback,
i'm a
beater

45.
the whomping
willow has
feelings
too

46.
defacing property?
just letting them
know the
chamber's open

47.
no castle?
not applying
to your
school

48.
in your
next life,
haunt the
bathroom

49.
my child
is a
NEWT
student

50.
toyota?
have you
heard of
the nimbus?

heat

heat
shuts my eyelids
rests my head against the car seat
lulls me into a greedy stupor
desire
overcomes me, unwanted
threatens to, unwillingly
convince me, swiftly
if I were in your arms
it would all be okay
if I were your neighbor
it would be just fine
if I were someone else
it wouldn’t be a failure
to need to see the emotion in
eyes I’ve never looked into
to need to feel the love in
arms I’ve never been encased in
to need to breathe the faith of
a scent I’ve never smelled
cold
leaves me empty
drops my ego on the tile
becomes the reality
of knowing that
l
o
w
is where it needs to stay

Natasha Bedingfield is my one true love... with Cate Blanchett as a close second.

Who am I, thinking I can blog two days in a row?

So, I admit that I'm a bit of a shopaholic. Well, okay, a LOT of a shopaholic. I don't even have a job, but when I get one, I know that I'll be like my BFF Bobby and just spend all the pay checks on SHIT. Sorry for my language, but it's the truth. I see something and I want it and I can't say no to myself. This is going to be terrible when I have kids, because I'm going to want to purchase everything for them even if I go into crazy mother debt. That's kind of how my mom is. Guess it runs in the family - woopssss. But the things I buy are cute! It should be okay, right? I guess that's not how the world works. Sniffle.

For some reason, over the past week of sadness I've had (it sucks. a lot) I've been listening to an ungodly amount of Natasha Bedingfield. Right now it's "Pocketful of Sunshine", but "Single" also makes me pretty damn inspired. I wish I was her. She looks like one of those girls who went through high school with admirers and creepers and just said 'screw you' to all of them. Then again, I could be totally wrong. I'm just making judgements here. Guilty habit of mine.

I'm currently brushing my teeth as I type this. It takes skill. Actually, the toothbrush is just sitting in my mouth while I type and suck on spearmint. ...Wow, I'm Hermione Granger.

So today is John Green's and Rupert Grint's birthday, so kudos to you guys for sticking around on this lousy planet for as long as you have! Just kidding, you're not that old. You've got lots of time left to be disappointed. ...I'm joking, right? Right. Also, Mockingjay was released today and I was supposed to go to the midnight party last night but I couldn't hitch myself a ride there. I ordered it a while ago and it still probably won't get here until the weekend. My luck!

Alright, so, if I wasn't nerdy enough already, I decided to increase that aspect of myself by deciding to make lembas bread with my best friend, the aforementioned Bobby, today. And thanks to this lovely website (http://recipes.sparkpeople.com/recipe-detail.asp?recipe=267358), we've adapted the recipe to my veganism and we have all the ingredients except 8 tablespoons of vegan butter. Anyhow, that's not the point. When I was asking my mom if we had all the necessary items, she took one look at the picture and went "Where are you gonna get a leaf to wrap it in? We don't have a leaf." And I'm like.. no mom, that's just what the Hobbits keep it in. And she's like, "Sorry hon, where are you gonna get a leaf. It's not gonna happen." I can't even tell if she's serious. And the funniest part is that we have too many trees for our own good in the backyard. She makes no sense.

Also, I just checked the mail and my mom got a travel magazine with a full body shot of Cate Blanchett of the cover. I stared for a half hour. She is too beautiful in every way. *cowers under Elvish beauty*

Later, y'all. Let's hope I stick to my blogging spree of inspiration. <3

i legitimately...

...haven't blogged since march.
wow, i'mma failure.
Well, let's start with the "since then..." approach.

Since then, I've gone to two Harry Potter conventions - Expeditious and Infinitus. One was much better than the other, but this isn't a blog post for complaining, so I'm keeping that to myself.
Since then, a lot of drama has gone down with my friends. It's mostly been because of dating, which I should've known better than to dabble in inside of the fandom. Silly me.
Since then, I turned seventeen. It doesn't feel any different, and I'm still too lazy to get my license.
Since then, I've had my heart broken. Let's not talk about it.
Since then, I've written better music that's gradually growing more Muggle roots.
Since then, I've fallen for a straight girl.
Since then, I've fallen for a guy who lives 14 hours away.
Since then, I went on tour.
Since then, I've been trying to grow my hair out and getting really annoyed with it.
Since then, I've been trying to be an optimist.

newsflash, people!

Did you ever have one of those friends who you were embarrassed to be around but too subdued to send them away? Ever meet a new friend and become engaged in a conversation for what seems like a millisecond when that embarrassing person rounds the corner and tries to butt in? If you do, then you know that subsequently the new friend drifts off. It's pretty horrid when you think about it, and a sure way to be a loner through something called high school.

As you know by now, bad friends exist. Unwanted friends exist. Friends who aren't really friends - they're out there too. That's why your argument is completely worthless when you try to side with them. It's obvious from the way you speak of them that you don't like them, so DON'T USE IT AS AN EXCUSE.

"Oh, it's okay that you're a lesbian. I totally have a lesbian friend...!"

At least try to make it convincing. Sheesh.

Legit Carolina Hacker Attack.

For some reason when I hit "log in" on blogger this evening, I found myself mysteriously logged in to this blog.

Tianna, consider yourself Legit Carolina hacker attacked.

xoxo,
Sarah, the Legit Carolinian.