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i haven't posted anything in forever, i know. sorry i don't capitalize right or punctuate either. not like anyone reads this, but yanno. just self conscious. this is a little hard to type because my cat cheshire is laying on the counter under my arms, lawl.

i'm back from vacation and california and azkatraz and everything. honestly, if someone had told me beforehand how dramatic it would have been, i wouldn't have gone. seriously. like.. i just don't understand why anything that happened happened. it's so stupid. i want something new. as far as i'm concerned i'm not part of the fandom i witnessed at azkatraz. sorry. just sayin

i've realized that i spend too much time being pissed off and unsatisfied. i don't think that's necessarily good for someone my age. or anyone's age really. i really think i'll have to try changing this before i go to college, which i don't even want to think about in the slightest. i like blogspot more than facebook notes because hardly anyone reads this and that's weirdly refreshing. yayyy my cat just got up and stretched so i have arm room. bah. i'm just very restless with this place and everywhere i've been and my friends and anything and everything. it makes me so sad all the time. my mom insists i need a therapist. i just need my best friend 7 hours away.